Go away go away go away go away

*deletes first bit because it doesn't make sense*

Why do people have to be so goddamn confident over msn and text? it's fucking annoying: it's like everyone's two people: face-to-face them and internet them. That get's on my fucking nerves.

as you may be able to tell, i've been in better moods.

Why the hell won't this fucking bad situation go away? believe it or not, if you break up with someone you do it for a reason, and you've thought it through a considerable amount: so you're not going to change your mind! certain people (person, actually) can't understand that. Also, they're a liiitle bit blind to the truth.

I'm being a hypocrite for not just saying who it is and exactly what they said, but that hardly seems fair on them, nichola, or me.

I just want to forget the whole situation and carry on with life as normal.

I've just remembered something that my old ju-jitsu teacher said to me once. it was something along the lines of "if you're feeling depressed - your dog died or whatever - if someone comes over to you and is feeling great - they've won the lottery! life's great! - and asks you how you are: you reply 'i'm fantastic!'. You just do, otherwise you'll just ruin their day!"

I can't remember why he said it, but that kinda stuck with me. So there, every time you ask me in person how i am, i will say that i'm fine.

again, i'm being a hypocrite. if you ask me over msn, i'm liable to say 'meh'. i'm all over the place today.

i'm going to go calm down - have some coffee, go out with my dad, do some homework, possibly (if i have time) go on dragon age. i haven't had time two nights in a row to do my exercises; which is bad. I'm going to struggle with that tonight, methinks.

ah well, i'd say i'll be feeling far better once my homework's done - just because i'm a geek/nerd (can't remember which one's which) and find some pieces of homework relaxing and enjoyable. Such is my life.

Also, i feel i should've mentioned Lou's last night. It was fun, but exactly as i predicted there were far too many people: there was a quite literal split between groups, although there only seemed to be two groups. I was at the edge of our group, so i couldn't join in the conversation much at all, and I ended up being slightly harassed by evie and emily and lizzie, or however you want to spell their names. that wasn't fun. overall, it was good fun though.

anyway, i'm off, and shall bid you adieu. (yes, I'm going back to that one)